keep me where i belong

0netrickpony @ 2008-03-31T10:24:00

2008-03-31T14:26:07Z

R.I.P Dude 2000-2008

0netrickpony @ 2007-04-12T19:46:00

2007-04-12T23:49:28Z

RIP Mister Vonnegut

Bah dang.

I don't really have any other news. I finished reading Vladimir Nabokov's "Lolita", which is written beautifully. I've got exams starting Monday, and two papers to hand in tomorrow. Also, The Arcade Fire's "Neon Bible" album = brilliant. Neil gave it to me last weekend and I can not stop listening to it.

0netrickpony @ 2007-02-02T00:43:00

2007-02-02T06:02:05Z

Still nothing had been forgiven
Clay turns in to rock and rock just sits
So sitting on a crowded beach
I'd pretend I was a leech
And I'd stick to things here and there
For a little bit
And back when I was thirty-one
I knew I'd become what I'd become
Nothing left to reveal and nowhere else to turn
So shocked and withered, dumb and bitter
And in need of a babysitter
I'd gladly let my hand fall off and burn, burn, burn

-Back When I was 4 excerpt
Jeffrey Lewis

I Foil My Own Plots

2007-02-01T02:42:21Z

Fuck.

Despite all of my anti-romance, love, relationship proclamations I am much more of a romantic than I like to admit.

I'm half watching American Idol while working on an assignment for my Blake class, and a man named Sherman Pore, in his sixties, petitioned to audition. His wife of twenty years was diagnosed recently with cancer and she dedicated herself to the petition so it was a way for him to help her distract herself from her illness.

She died two days before his audition, but he went and sang the song "You Belong to Me" in front of the judges. It was incredibly sad and sweet.

I just fucking cried like a baby.

See the pyramids around the Nile
Watch the sun rise
From the tropic isle
Just remember darling
All the while
You belong to me
See the market place
In old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember
When a dream appears
You belong to me

I think it's the birds that get me

2007-01-14T20:23:40Z

His blood on my arm is warm as a bird
his heart in my hand is heavy as lead
his eyes through my eyes shine brighter than love
O send out the raven ahead of the dove

His life in my mouth is less than a man
his death on my breast is harder than stone
his eyes through my eyes shine brighter than love
O send out the raven ahead of the dove

O send out the raven ahead of the dove
O sing from your chains where you're chained in a cave
your eyes through my eyes shine brighter than love
your blood in my ballad collapses the grave

O sing from your chains where you're chained in a cave
your eyes through my eyes shine brighter than love
your heart in my hand is heavy as lead
your blood on my arm is warm as a bird

O break from your branches a green branch of love
after the raven has died for the dove

- Leonard Cohen
"Prayer for Messiah"

(Wow - Usually I hate this style o' poetry, but I really dig this one. I think this is the first book of poetry I have actually paid for [Leonard Cohen's Stranger Music] and I'm pretty impressed. Then again, I'm not hard to impress...

Also, I'm really in to The Editors right now - download the song Bullets because I say so)

0netrickpony @ 2006-11-29T16:11:00

2006-11-29T21:11:52Z

I find it absolutely bizarre that I am sitting on my balcony working on a canvas wearing sweatpants and a t-shirt for two reasons:

1) Holy shit, it's been a long time since I've picked up my paint brushes

2) Um, hi, Canada? This is Sarah. Where the fuck is winter? Because I'm wearing a t-shirt outside on November 29 and I am still hot. People are wearing flip flops and shorts to classes. Boys are playing football in the streets with no shirts on. Families are eating bbq'd food for dinner. It would all be so pleasant if it wasn't a fierce reminder that our planet's melting. So, any time you want to get back to me with some appropriate snowfall, I'd really appreciate it.

Edit: I requested snow, not a gentle summer rain.

0netrickpony @ 2006-10-11T11:34:00

2006-10-11T15:34:38Z

Grizzly Bear + TV on the Radio = a great show.

I love TV. The only song they didn't sing that I wanted them to was Ambulance, but I'll get over it.

Aaron and I are going to make a band when we learn how to play instruments. What the hell else are we going to do when we graduate as creative writing majors? We don't have a solid career future any way, haha.

0netrickpony @ 2006-09-10T22:31:00

2006-09-11T02:32:55Z

Fingers and toes, fingers and toes
Forty things we share
Forty one if you include
The fact that we don't care

0netrickpony @ 2006-08-19T09:38:00

2006-08-18T13:41:11Z

How is it that I don't get sick in the winter...but I've been ill twice this summer?

Rachael got mad drunk last night and lost her wallet, which contained my health card. Luckily someone found it and called this morning. Relief!

I left work early yesterday. Cancelled all plans, declined all invites and basically slept myself in to mediocre health. Christine and Neil ended up coming over around 10 or 11pm because Neil had a book of mine, and then they cut some stencils at my place and left.

Now they're going to get sick too...buahaha.

Where now is Karnak, that great fane?
With granite built a miracle
And Luxor smooth without a stain
Whose graven scriptures still we spell

The owl and the jackal may tell
Dark snakes among the ruins climb
Like an echo in a shell
Where are the cities of old time?

0netrickpony @ 2006-08-16T19:07:00

2006-08-16T23:08:50Z

Cheer up, honey, I hope you can
There is something wrong with me
My mind is filled with silvery star
Honey kisses, clouds of fog
Sugars shrugging off
Cheer up, honey, I hope you can
There is something wrong with me
My mind is filled with radio cures
Electronic surgical words
Picking apples for kings & queens of things I've never seen
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Cheer up, honey, I hope you can
There is something wrong with me
My mind is filled with silvery star
Honey kisses, clouds of fog
Picking apples for kings & queens of things I've never seen
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Oh, distance has no way of making love understandable
Oh, distance has the way of making love understandable
Oh, distance has the way of making love understandable
Cheer up, honey, I hope you can

- Radio Cure, Wilco

0netrickpony @ 2006-08-01T10:51:00

2006-08-01T14:59:58Z

30 more days of work.

Everything in my life has been so surreal lately. Not even surreal good. I just feel like I've been kind of haphazardly passing through and by everything without taking notice or being heavily affected. I mean, I react at the time of certain events and then afterward it's kind of dreamlike. It's like everything that goes on doesn't involve me, I'm just there. It's not such a bad thing...but it's making my life feel really fake and I keep waiting for something to happen [wake up] when nothing will.

Weird.

Read me your scripture and
read me your scripture
read me your scripture and I will
twist it

Show me your wrist and I
show me your wrist and
show me your wrist and I'll
kiss it
kiss it

3

2006-03-24T00:08:36Z

So we're drinking and we're dancing
and the band is really happening
and the Johnny Walker wisdom running high
And my very sweet companion
she's the Angel of Compassion
and she's rubbing half the world against her thigh
Every drinker, every dancer
lifts a happy face to thank her
and the fiddler fiddles something so sublime
All the women tear their blouses off
and the men they dance on the polka-dots
and it's partner found and it's partner lost
and it's hell to pay when the fiddler stops
It's closing time

We're lonely, we're romantic
and the cider's laced with acid
and the Holy Spirit's crying, 'Where's the beef?'
And the moon is swimming naked
and the summer night is fragrant
with a mighty expectation of relief
So we struggle and we stagger
down the snakes and up the ladder
to the tower where the blessed hours chime
And I swear it happened just like this:
a sigh, a cry, a hungry kiss
the Gates of Love they budged an inch
I can't say much has happened since
but closing time

I loved you for your beauty
but that doesn't make a fool of me -
you were in it for your beauty too
I loved you for your body
there's a voice that sounds like G-d to me
declaring that your body's really you
I loved you when our love was blessed
and I love you now there's nothing left
but sorrow and a sense of overtime
And I miss you since our place got wrecked
I just don't care what happens next
looks like freedom but it feels like death
it's something in between, I guess
it's closing time

And I miss you since the place got wrecked
by the winds of change and the weeds of sex
looks like freedom but it feels like death
it's something in between, I guess
it's closing time

We're drinking and we're dancing
but there's nothing really happening
the place is dead as Heaven on a Saturday night
and my very close companion
gets me fumbling, get me laughing
she's a hundred but she's wearing something tight
And I lift my glass to the Awful Truth
which you can't reveal to the Ears of Youth
except to say it isn't worth a dime
And the whole damn place goes crazy twice
and it's once for the Devil and it's once for Christ
but the Boss don't like these dizzy heights -
we're busted in the blinding lights
of closing time

-Leonard Cohen
"Closing Time"

0netrickpony @ 2006-01-27T21:53:00

2006-01-28T02:53:12Z

Saw Brokeback Mountain with Lauren. Liked it.

I feel sick.

"fuck the poets of the past, my friends.
there are no beautiful suicides
just cold corpses with shit in their pants
and the end of gifts"

0netrickpony @ 2006-01-26T11:52:00

2006-01-26T16:56:11Z

1965-2006

And since I'm on the topic of bad news,

I was terrified, now ya'll are too. Your welcome.

0netrickpony @ 2006-01-14T12:55:00

2006-01-14T17:56:14Z

full out in house mode scramble. our choices for a 3 bedroom are disgusting. i have to come up with $600 for today to get the only decent place we have looked at. crazy shit.

[edit] broker than broke, but we got the apartment and i'm pretty excited about that.

0netrickpony @ 2006-01-07T01:34:00

2006-01-07T06:38:55Z

group drunk at my place yesterday. watched movies. ate. drank drank drank. passed out.

em woke me up today at 12:30 (hayl was sleeping in my room and everyone else left at 9:00ish) and all three of us went and got our eyebrows waxed by some crazy european lady. dropped hayl off cus she had to work at 5, came home and dyed em's hair brown with pink streaks. now she's a hot little 13 year old. prostitot.

chris came and got me and we had timmy ho's and visited hayl at work and then watched tv at chris's and ate crooners and garlic until we felt violently ill. travelled to first markham and watched memoirs of a geisha with keitho and ashley. chris and hayl came over for all of twenty minutes and then headed home.

now i think i should probably sleep but i'll most likely stay awake and do something stupid and get mad at myself tomorrow.

i walk the line

2005-12-23T04:34:29Z

a lot of working. a lot less sleeping than i wish there was.

saw walk the line with visiting cousin and sister.

getting along fairly well with everyone, weird.

0netrickpony @ 2005-11-21T17:54:00

2005-11-21T22:54:42Z

you are exactly like the people you claim to hate.

on an unrelated note, bedouin soundclash in less than 3 hours.

You got the street smarts but I got the looks

2005-10-02T06:34:30Z

I think it's official to say that I will jump Kanye West and/or Steve Carell should I see either of them in public. They are added, of course, to my list that consists of Paul Rudd and Vince Vaughn. I caught half of SNL tonight...

Erin was supposed to come over but she was too hung over and I didn't care, so she didn't. I told Cam my dream and then Lauren told her dream but I won the competition.

Lauren, Tanille and I watched The Longest Yard and then we walked to the store at midnight because I wanted to go. I was wearing like ripped jeans and this shirt I've worn for approximately the past two days, and I looked the most decent because we all decided to be hobos today...but apparently I am a fairly decent hobo...does that earn me street cred? I say yes. Yes it does.

Came home, caught that SNL and then watched The Corpse Bride with Tanille.

Now Iron Chef is on but I've all ready seen this episode...so I'll probably find something else to watch instead of going to sleep like a

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0netrickpony @ 2005-09-28T16:00:00

2005-09-28T20:00:37Z

Went to class and have spent the past two or three hours fucking around on my computer. Downloaded iTunes which decided it didn't want to read any of my ripped CDs so uninstalled that, tried three new spyware programs and a bunch of other shit. Now I am revising my chill mix and making it better...which means I all ready wasted three CDs but I don't really care. It's difficult making this CD though because I want to change some of the songs but I've listened to the original so many times that the songs are like imprinted in my mind. I apologize if I make any one a copy that sucks, I'm going to make them crossfade into each other which is also a sketchy situation.

I tattooed my stereo. I opened my Something Corporate North CD for like ... the second time since I bought it however long ago, and a Something Corporate tattoo fell out. I didn't really know what to do with it so I tattood it to my stereo.

I talked to my mom last night for the first time in a few weeks. Talked to Bronx too and he went nuts. I miss him so much...

H'okay.

I'm done here.

0netrickpony @ 2005-09-20T14:30:00

2005-09-20T18:30:57Z

I somehow broke my discman which is really frustrating because now I don't have anything to do when walking to class or working out. Fuuuck.

I've resorted to beating it until I really break it for obvious reasons or until it starts to work again.

0netrickpony @ 2005-09-13T19:17:00

2005-09-13T23:16:27Z

when should someone feel like they are running out of time with life?

ever?

yeah, it's an odd question. i've just been thinking a lot today about almost everything and that's one of the things i can't answer that makes me nervous.

0netrickpony @ 2005-09-08T12:47:00

2005-09-08T16:46:23Z

Approximately five days, Windsor lovin', hot weather, CSI, bike riding, drinking, laughing, drunken phone calling and music listening days later, I now have internet access in my house.

I saw a dead mouse today on the way back from class and it made me sad.

I have a mother of a photo upload I'll have to do at some point today, but not right now because I don't feel like putting effort into it.

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2005-08-29T04:56:25Z

Some public, most friends only because I like to pretend I am a secretive person.

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